VOICES i sit on my bunk and listen to all the voices, trying to free my mind from all my life's regretful choices. Nobody understands the hurt and pain I'm living with, wanting only 5 more minutes with my three kids. Kelsey's voice lingers in my head, "you would fail if I was dead"! I promised her to keep our children safe not knowing that Jill would soon take my place. At night I cry to God begging Him for the strength to change the dreadful way my destructive mind thinks. Now I close my eyes again, Praying from deep within for all my family and friends, still believing and loving life until the end. Lord please forgive my countless sins. I am dreading waking up voiceless again. Good night voices in my head, my old friend.