[Intro] (Instrumental Solo) [Verse 1] Courtroom hums behind my eyes, no jury, just the glow One voice draped in velvet black, one stitched in snow-white thread They yank my ribs like marionette strings, argue in my chest "Speak the truth and lose them all" or "Stay quiet, pass the test" I feed both sides with silence, let their words sharpen to a blade Searching for a landing pad where my frayed soul can finally fade [Pre-Chorus] I crave a room with no disguises, where my heartbeat isn’t muffled But I choke on every confession like it’s shards of broken glass I lie so smooth I almost buy it, call it mercy, call it help How do I trust anybody… When I don’t even trust myself? [Chorus] When I don’t even trust myself, how can love survive my doubt? I build a home from pretty lies, then gape when it falls out Angel pleads "Open your hands" while the devil snarls "Hide the keys" Stuck between a prayer and a habit that won’t set me free I wear a smile like rusted armor, let it corrode beneath the light Losing wars I never speak of When I don’t even trust myself at night [Verse 2] Poker face for morning coffee, shuffle guilt with every breath Hoping time will stitch my mess without me choosing left or left But I know the reckoning’s coming—no more hiding in the deck One hand plays a full house, the other’s just a wreck I hate how I’m "nice" enough to bend until my bones all break Doing everything "right" while I dig my own mistakes [Pre-Chorus 2] ’Cause kindness can be a costume when you’re scared to draw a line Cowardice looks civilized when it’s wearing borrowed time I keep delaying detonation, call it "protecting everyone’s health" But the clock’s ticking louder… And I can’t outrun myself [Chorus] When I don’t even trust myself, how can love survive my doubt? I build a home from pretty lies, then gape when it falls out Angel begs "Tell the truth" while the devil hisses "Let it bleed" Stuck between a promise and a hunger underneath I act like I’m the good guy, then flinch when it’s my fight ’Cause sometimes you’ve gotta be the villain To kill the bigger lie [Bridge] Tick-tick—every second’s a choice I keep delaying Every "maybe later" cracks the ice I’m standing on The collateral I’ve been caging grows teeth when it’s on a leash Bites the ones I love the most, bites the parts of me I least want seen I don’t want to be the asshole… but I’m tired of being split Tired of letting fear decide who gets hurt and who gets to win [Breakdown] So here it is—no halo, no horns—just my shaking voice If I don’t speak the truth today, tomorrow makes the choice [Final Chorus] But I feel it burning deep, yeah, hope like a match in rain A tiny flame that keeps on breathing in the ruins of my name I dreamed of this day—when the ghosts behind my eyes Stop hiding in the shadows and stand up in my hands instead Angel urges "Walk through it" while the devil screams "Run and stay the same" But I’m done bargaining with the fear that wears my face I’ll lay my soul down wide open, let the honest hurt be real ’Cause trust isn’t a feeling… it’s a vow I choose to seal If I build it from the truth, the world can call it what it wants I’ll finally be someone I can trust [Outro] When I don’t even trust myself… I’ll learn. I’ll tell. I’ll become the day my imagination turns real.