[Intro] (Instrumental Solo) [Verse 1] I learned young how to fade out clean Laugh through the parts that felt obscene Mumble I'm fine with my eyes on the floor While every bone screamed they knew the score They saw the cracks under the grin Knew I was lost before I did Carried a weight I could not name Got good at fine till I forgot my face [Chorus] And God I tried I swear I tried Some nights the weight of being alive Weighed more than every breath I'd ever breathed Staring up at the dark ceiling Watching all the pieces disappear Trying to dig myself out from under Every version built on fear I still burned out trying to rewire Still lied when the panic caught fire Still carried thunder through every room Still found ways to hurt the ones who loved me too I know I let you down I know That's the record that won't stop playing When the whole house goes quiet and the lights go low [Chorus] So I stayed quiet stayed running Stayed locked inside my head While everybody else kept growing And God I tried I swear I tried To be the one they didn't have to cry for Now I'm sitting with the wreckage Of all the people I've been before Wondering if this is really Where my story ends for good [Bridge] But maybe there's still time left yet Maybe I am not finished yet Maybe growing up is just learning How to outlive your own regret Maybe one morning I will wake And the fear will not be waiting Maybe I will step outside And the sun will stay [Outro] I don't know what comes next I just know I am still here Still breathing Still hoping Still trying not to disappear